Summing up - John C. Kirk
Jun. 30th, 2002
03:48 pm - Summing up
Hmm, been a varied two days since my last entry.
Had a good time on Friday evening, playing Fluxx with Michael and Lorna. I won a couple of times, although that's more due to them doing things wrong than me doing things right :)
Got my "real" transcript through yesterday morning, i.e. the official printed copy. Actually, I have 6 copies - there are 3 formats (varying levels of detail), and I have 2 of each. I think they're trying to make amends for the delay, which is cool. I then had to hunt out the application form, as that had been moved around my room since I last saw it. Anyway, I now have all the bits I need, so I'm going to fill out the application today, and hand-deliver it to Kings tomorrow. As Viv says, maybe I can get some birthday luck on my side :)
Went to Oxford Street in the afternoon, on my weekly comics run. I was looking for a copy of "Sir Apropos of Nothing" (the new Peter David paperback), but Forbidden Planet don't have it yet. On the plus side, "Science of the Discworld" has just come out in paperback (with two new chapters), so I picked that up - saves me having to filch Lorna's copy.
H-L came round for a talk last night, which wasn't quite what I'd expected.
Basically, she's concerned about me, and thinks that I have Asperger's Disorder, so I should go into group therapy. The main issue is that I keep getting into weird situations, because of things I don't know that other people do, so I ought to learn them. She gave me a list of symptoms:
- Socially awkward and clumsy in relations - lacking an understanding of social rules.
- Naive and gullible. May lack common sense.
- Often unaware of others' feelings.
- Limited understanding of others' gestures.
- Very concrete, literal in speech and understanding.
- Clumsy and uncoordinated movements. Physically awkward in sports.
- Inappropriate body language or facial expression.
- Unusual speech patterns (repetitive and/or irrelevant remarks).
- Stilted, formal manner of speaking.
- Unusually loud, high or monotonous voice.
- A large vocabulary, but a lack of understanding of common words/concepts.
- May not understand idioms, takes them literally.
- Overattention to detail.
- May develop an obsessive interest in one topic (train schedules or toothbrushes) that is odd in its intensity and excludes most other activities.
Apparently, "People with AS can have symptoms ranging from mild to severe. Because of their high degree of functionality and their naivete, those with AS are often viewed by their peers as odd, and are frequently a target for bullying."
I've been giving this some thought (and dreams), and discussing it with the others in the flat here. I haven't come to any decision yet, but I do have mixed feelings about it. I would certainly agree that there are several items on that list that apply to me, so if that means that I have this disorder by definition then fair enough. And yes, it would probably help to improve some of them. However, I'm not sure whether therapy is necessarily the best approach.
For instance, I know I have a bit of an obsessive streak, but I try to channel that into productive things (e.g. attention to detail with my programming), rather than boring all my friends by talking about the same topic all the time. In a situation like the one I was in a few weeks ago (where I gave all that money away), I've discussed it with friends since then, to find out how I should have handled it better. I lean towards the view that talking to a group of sensible people is more helpful than talking to a group of people who are just as stupid as me... Some other problems may have simpler solutions. E.g. Michael commented that I have fairly low self-esteem, which I think I'd agree with, but that should improve once I'm back at university, doing something I like, rather than my current job. On the other hand, I spent some time with a counsellor in Durham, so I think that can be beneficial in some cases.
Anyway, comments and suggestions welcome...
Been checking my "Terminator" DVD this morning, after reading this article:
Basically, the discs are going a bit manky after a year, so mine keep pausing randomly while they're playing (sometimes for up to 1 minute). If you have the DVD, I recommend checking it, and emailing the guy who runs the site, so that he can do a group letter to MGM.
Later this evening, I'm off to the London Eye, as a birthday outing thing, so that should be good. Aside from anything else, it will be an opportunity for my flatmates to meet my Durham friends, which is something I've been looking forward to for a while.
Hmm, time to sort out this application...